Thirteen Weeks: Heartbeat

May 29, 2014

Thirteen Weeks

Little Tiny Human,

Today I'm not sure if it was you or me or the fact that it was a sweltering 77 degrees today in Gunnison, but it's hot. Worth the trip though to hear your heartbeat. The lady with the doppler machine first found my heartbeat by accident, which wasn't reassuring. There was a split second when I thought I lost you, then there your little heartbeat was. 156 beats per minute. I'm sure someday I'll have the same feeling when I lose you in the grocery store. I'm easily distracted by food, I can almost guarantee it will happen...

I love you. You have a cute heartbeat.

Mom

Twelve Weeks: Snowball Fight

May 17, 2014

Twelve Weeks

Little Tiny Human,

They say you have eyes already, but I'm pretty sure you don't have x-ray vision yet. If you did, you could see the beautiful view tonight at Windy Point. The mountains are beautiful and there is snow all around. Your dad started a snowball fight, which I'm sure you'll come to know as normal after you see how much he loves the snow.

Next year I'll take you to Windy Point again, praying you'll make it to then. Praying hard.

Mom

Eleven Weeks: Kolaches

May 12, 2014

Eleven Weeks

Little Tiny Human,

Yesterday you got your first taste of the Lake City Bakery. Yes, we were the first customers of the summer and yes the entire town was covered in snow. Remind me if it's ever your birthday and you need donuts and it's snowing, remind me that it wouldn't be the first time I went out in snow for donuts and sausage and cheese kolaches for you. Stay warm little one, it's cold out.

Mom

Baby Brain

May 14, 2014

Dear Little Tiny Human,

Maybe you'll be really funny. Maybe you'll be really silly. But today you're taking all that's left of my brain. Give it back or I won't give you yummy ice cream for dinner just for funzies. Okay?

Love always,
You're crazy mother.

So this morning I woke up normal. I got plenty of rest. I even put on make up and put on my new pregnancy skinny jeans just to be cute. Then I headed to our breakfast meeting at camp. I made a bowl of oatmeal and it was time for breakfast devo.

And that's when it happened.

Skeet the camp boss was asking about qualities of a leader. And after reading multiple books on leadership at my other job this year, I had something to share.

I tried.

It didn't work. About one out of every three words didn't come out of my mouth correctly.

When saying 'a leader is...' it came out more like 'see, it, a leader, can, soup...' Poor Kyle was very confused and when the rest of the team asked Kyle what was happening to be he replied, 'I have no idea, maybe she's having a stroke...'

And I kept trying. I'd pull myself together and I'd get a few great words out and then I'd follow with 'so when you get wet' instead of something about leadership. I was the epitome of what one of my good friend calls 'a hot mess.' So I just started laughing.

I started giggling and with everything I had I couldn't stop.

I got up, walked out of the breakfast meeting, stopped in the kitchen, dried my eyes from all the laughter and tried to pull myself together. But then I started crying, like sad crying. And only a few seconds later I'd be laughing at the very same time.

Eventually I could breath normally, and I re-joined the meeting. I sat down and started laughing and had to get right back up and walk right back out.

Oh Little Tiny Human, you and your sister both, you've stolen any bit of intelligence I ever had left...