Labor Day, but not that kind of labor.

I giggle a little bit being pregnant on Labor Day. I can only imagine the moms who go into labor on Labor Day and that makes me giggle even more.

Excuse me while I lay by the pool in my maternity tankini drinking an ice cold lemonade slush surrounded by wonderful people and the yummiest of foods.

Yes, it is a pregnant lady's dream...

Happy Labor Day!

It's a Real Thing

So yes, I'm home to the wonderful world of Texas.

And yes, I'm pregnant.

So although each year I return to our home ready to get the house 'back into shape' and work on all those house projects I've been doodling about all summer, this year let's just combine that with NESTING.

It's a real thing.

But we have friends (who we love!) staying in our guest room/ nursery for the summer and as planned they're still here. But now it's like when you want a chocolate cupcake, and you don't have one so you think 'oh I'll just eat this Hershey's kiss and that'll do'. And then it doesn't 'do' so you think I'll just have this chocolate pudding, and then I'll just have these two Oreos and some milk. And then 700 calories later you realize that you're going to actually have to go get a chocolate cupcake or you'll eat the entire house.

Well I've got a mother-nature-induced will to clean and prepare the baby nursery. So while I wait for the room to clear, I find myself going 'ooh I'll just stain the gazebo and retile the bathroom and clean every shelf in the entire refrigerator by taking it apart and soaking every piece...'

Luckily (other than the fridge) I put all those plans on hold. I did get out and wash and de-leaf the gazebo. And I did hang the fancy patio lights I got for my birthday, but I've got to wait until I fix the screen on the gazebo before I spend any mosquito-free time out there.

I did find a way to sneak into the nursery and do a few things...

I have the task set ahead of me of rebuilding the nursery. IT hasn't yet been used and so I won't want to change much. There's a part of me that wants to keep everything the same forever, but then there's a part of me that knows I do want to change out the roses on the wall for our baby boy.

So while I'm not repainting the room or buying all new things, I will be making a few changes to get the nursery ready for baby Hess number two. The roses on the wall and the picture of my grandmothers in swimsuits will probably need to go. Unless of course they're like a pin-up girls which seems wrong in more ways than fifty thousand.

So let's just say I've got a few projects going and I'm real excited to share them with you in the next few weeks.

Until then, Happy Labor Day Weekend! I hope you get to spend time with the people you love doing the things that make your heart most happy.

Twenty Five Weeks: Consumed with Love

August 24, 2014

Twenty Five Weeks

Little Tiny Human,

It's been two hundred and fifty days since I held your sister in my arms. Interesting thing is, today marks one hundred days until they say I'll be holding you.

Life is kind of wonderful like that. The day we found out for sure you were inside my belly it had been one hundred days since Hannah. It's the little happenings of life falling so perfectly in place that you just know they must have been perfectly designed by God.

It's funny too because that's how I count my life right now. Every day since I said goodbye to your sister is a big step, it's a sign of where we've all been and how far we've come. Some days floated by and some days I fought for. But as the days get closer I start to count them by you... how many days until you are here.

So today as the sun set and the air cooled just a bit, I took you out to your sister's grave. You've been there before and I'm sure you'll be there many times again, but today it was special. I wished so hard that you could have met her; I wished so hard that I could have met her. And then although I didn't think I would, I stood there and cried because although I know you will bring us great joy, I wept as I remembered that it will be quite a long time before we, our family, will all be together again.

I love you more every day. I love her more everyday too somehow. It's funny how every piece and part of my heart can love her and still have room for you. My greatest fear is not losing you, but not having anywhere left in my heart for you. But the truth is that each day you fill another piece of my heart that I thought was already full. How can my heart be so very consumed with love?

I guess we're just that blessed.

I can't wait to meet you, but surely I already love you,
Mom

Twenty Four Weeks: Love Extra

August 12, 2014

Twenty Four Weeks

Little Tiny Human,

Today I put on my heels and I went back to work. You'll notice it's really the only time I wear anything close to heels except of course when your daddy and I go on fancy dates and I dress up all pretty.

Everyone at work was so impressed with you. They were all "oh look at that belly!" "little man inside!" and talking cute baby talk to you. I'm sure you heard them, I hope you loved it. I loved it. I'm proud of you already.

People are extra kind today most likely because they remember your sister. There is no doubt that people may love you extra because of Hannah once you are born. I surely will. As much as my heart still beats for her every day, I have all this pent up baby love that I'm ready to spill out on someone. So when you're eighteen and I'm bawling as you leave for college and saying sappy things like "I love you baby!" while your friends are around. Remember, it's just because I love you extra.

I do, I love you extra.

Now I have to go put my feet up because although your sister kindly spared me of swollen feet, you, you sir have not been so courteous since we hit the heat of Texas.

Love extra,
Mom